Women are seriously my Kryptonite. I don’t get it sometimes, I find it almost impossible to focus if something is going wrong in the women area of my life, and I hate the effect it has on me. See the thing is, I find myself constantly needing “a women” around, not saying that I call up any girl I can, and get her over. I don’t consider myself a slut who tries to pull late night booty calls, which I have, and probably almost every guy has.
I am trying to get myself to not need a women at all right now, to just be able to live life, hangout with friends, and work my butt off considering my partner and I just closed a $75,000 deal, with potentially another $50,000 coming.
See the photo above? 99% of the time, I am the guy with the girl in that photo, always having a girl. I need to be the guy walking forward, without the girl, fuck the girl right? At least, that’s what he’s saying, I don’t need a girl to define me, change me, motivate me, I am me he says. Haha, I know, I am using an Armani Ad for my explanation. The only reason I am posting this is to just open my eyes to what I let women do to me, whenever I blog about something, it’s a constant reminder because I stare at my blog all day.
I have been single for probably 8 months now, since my last girlfriend Stella, which was a brutal breakup, on my part of course being a complete dick and jackass to her. It took me a grip of time to get over her, a grip, and many many new women. I’ve dated quite a few women since her as well. Just last month I was dating probably the most gorgeous girl I’ve ever dated, well, second most gorgeous, Stella taking the lead, haha. This girl fucked with my head, and I hate it, why and how the fuck do I let “girls” fuck with my head. I know I am bigger, and better than that. Sometimes, and just sometimes I really feel like I let the women get control of me, like a little whipped puppy dog, well that’s pushing it. I never get whipped like a puppy dog, I am not that big of a pussy. But they really start to fucking get to me if things don’t go right. I guess I’m just a Taurus.
I am here to say fuck it, I am telling myself I am stronger than this, and don’t need women to define me. Considering the last women I liked a pretty decent amount, fucked me over for two of my friends behind my back (probably fucking one of them now), dirty little fucking whores. Sorry, I just needed to vent that out… Haha.
I will work my ass off, and that’s all I will do till beModel breaks the Alexa Top 1000 websites in the world. No women will change or fuck with me.
LOL dude fuck women, let's handle our shit!
maybe you should stop fucking with the girls feelings and they will stop fucking with yours. there are always 2 sides to a story.
Thanks Luccia. I'll work on that, I think in the beginning I wasn't the one postponing someone to let some guy come out and then make my FINAL DECISION cough* cough* luccia *cough
just saying andrew. stop acting like you're always the victim.
and on that note.. I'll say this without covering it with a witty cough.. you're so wrong. funny how i asked you before he even came out and u said no.
You asked me before he got here because I made you feel guilty, it's pathetic. I wanted to be with you, and the first thing you fucking said was, I have a guy flying to see me, and I am going to be with him, than I asked if I could sleep over still, and you effing said no. Instant turn off. Sorry, but that's the truth and how it ended. Otherwise, we would of been together.
And in no way am I saying I am the victim in this writing. I only refer to one bitch who was a whore, and I am sure you know who. I am just simply saying I hate how women have that effect on me.
i'm not even going to start on this subject with you because it is the past and it is done and over with. you obvioulsy had different views on that matter.
yes.. she was a fucking whore and I told you. Yet, you always go for girls with looks and it always comes back to bite you in the ass. they don't have that effect on you.. you bring that upon yourself. stop being so shallow when it comes to women.
Andrew –
I just read the transcript of your interview with Mixergy.com – my first visit there – and I am amazed at your resilience, the courage you have to speak the truth and let people see your open wounds. It takes a lot of cajones to let the world see you bleed. And – it gives people something to hope for when they watch you build it AGAIN! Kudos for leading the way for other people.
I admire you RAW honesty in this post. A tad teenager rant-ish. Reminds me of a bad Eminem song. LOL…But I admire it nonetheless.
Question: Are you TRULY interested in having your life take a QUANTAM friggin' leap in the area of who controls your emotions=who controls your head=who controls your productivity=who controls your $$$ ???
If the answer is YES, I'd love to talk to you!!
I can get you there.
You up for the whole ride so that you can have it ALL again – only bigger better this time?
Let me know what you're thinkin…
You can find me on Twitter at aprilletrupiano or my "junk" email at aprille@usa.com (I never give out my business email on public blogsites)
I am definitely interested!
Never did hear from you Andrew. Are you still up for this adventure to empower yourself completely? I'd love to hear from you if you are. If you're not, I wish you well and a wonderful 2010!!
Aprille