The Past And Today

First things first. I don't feel like Andrew Fashion anymore, I feel like Andrew Thompson. Ahhh, it feels good to clear the air. Andrew Fashion was when I use to shoot day and night back in 2006-2009. I feel like I've matured a little, and it's time to move on. Not that I won't or cannot shoot anymore, I most definitely will do photoshoots from time to time. If I do a photoshoot, I will mark the photo with "Andrew Fashion Photography" and that's it. Just the other night I decided to go over my old blog posts I wrote back in 2008-2009, and oh boy did I feel like writing something.

My posts from 2008 to early 2009: Movement published 2/1/08 3 Month Recap published 5/30/08 Ugh... published 10/17/08 My Life Back In Colorado published 11/11/08 Lessons From 08 published 1/11/09 I Feel On Top Of The World published 1/30/09

My Young & Stupid series was in December of 2009: Young & Stupid: How I Made 2.5 Million Young & Stupid: How I Lost It All Young & Stupid: My Depression Young & Stupid: How I Will Get Rich Again

I do want to make a quick little note to anyone reading this, there is absolutely no direction for this blog. I was just reading over my old stuff, and felt like compiling something. Now, you don't have to read all of my old blog posts, but it will give you an idea of my character five years ago. Wow, it's quite interesting to see how I wrote, how I thought, and just what was going through my head. My drive was incredible. I was hungry, hungry as fuck. It's like I have my entire life documented on my blog from when I first started making money, because that is when I started blogging. I have me blogging at my highest point when I was making 100-150k/mo, to when I went broke as fuck, to almost losing my house, to almost declaring bankruptcy, to being incredibly depressed, and so on. Just venting a storm to the world, but at the same time I kept saying things like this:

An excerpt from my blog post "I feel on top of the world" on January 30th, 2009:

"I have jealousy problems, anxiety problems, stress problems, and just overall problems I think mainly caused from debt now, but that’s not going to be a problem anymore, because I know who I am. I know I can get myself out of this, I know I am a great person regardless of my faults, I know I am fixable, I know I am great, and I know can be the greatest. I need to love myself, and take care of myself literally… I can do this, I can rise again, I will rise again, I’ll make millions again, I’ll find love again, I’ll find happiness again."

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It's like I would point out all of my flaws, but at the same time, in every blog post I would sneak in some Law of Attraction techniques. I literally went through 20+ of my old blog posts, and I realized in every single blog, I would end the blog with some type of hunger for success, even if I was bitching about people or money. I strongly believe I manifested my own destiny by me writing about it, which is just insane. I believe most people may think about it from time to time, or maybe even talk about it sometimes, but I wrote about it, thought about it, and talked about it. My hunger was so intense, and you can see it in my blogs. I made fucking vision boards! I lived and breathed success. I have always been a believer of the "The Secret," but to look back five years ago, and see it work? I'm speechless.

I mean I was totally fucked. The first time I moved to Los Angeles which was August of 2007, I left my girlfriend in LA in August of 2008. I went home broke, with maybe 20-50k in the bank (this was broke considering I had no income at the time), and blew that by 2009. I was so stubborn, I wouldn't get a job for the life of me. Thankfully I had a house, but I stopped paying my mortgage and just lived for free as long as I could. I was getting foreclosure notices on my door, in my mailbox, and so on. It was so annoying, and so embarrassing. I was getting phone calls from debt collectors left and right, letters in the mailbox about my debts, and I had to sell all of my cars, including my BMW M6. But I didn't care. I still didn't get a job, and I still didn't declare bankruptcy.

Another excerpt from my blog post "I feel on top of the world" on January 30th, 2009:

"We have all these problems we’re all in today, all of us, it’s not just me, and it’s not just you… It’s like an etch-a-sketch, the picture is being shaken, by whomever you want to believe is erasing everything so we can paint a new picture… Maybe it’s a higher being, maybe it’s just the role the universe takes, maybe it’s the law of attraction, maybe it’s energy, who the fuck knows, and who cares. Believe what you want, we are all entitled to our own beliefs. But maybe my etch-a-sketch is just being erased for me to paint a new picture, like a new start…"

andrewfacesmallI feel like what I'm writing is really just a post for me, and if you the readers enjoy, then great. But... To me, it's like a recollection of thoughts and past memories, just reminding myself of what I've been through, not just financially. Emotionally, and spiritually which I will get to later. What I went through at age 21, still just a kid really, is just incredible. I traveled the world, had all the toys I wanted, and could buy anything I wanted. I went completely broke, and was to stubborn to get a job for two whole years, I struggled living off of McDonalds. The Dollar menu, and this is no exaggeration, not even the slightest. I was scrounging for change around my house, from friends, from the couches, just in order to get a McDouble from the menu...

What was I doing this whole time while barely affording to eat? I was working on ideas, such as BEMODEL, internet marketing, or anything I could do to make a dollar from the internet. However I did raise capital from two investors for BEMODEL in January of 2010, but that company went south shortly, but that's another story entirely which has probably been covered many times in previous blogs. I sold my big money maker website on April 17th of 2008. Which means, I was incomeless for three years. Three years I was incomeless! I had very small jobs come in from time to time, and of course my mother was there to help out a lot with food and what not. I made a very abrupt decision to move to Los Angeles June of 2011 with about $8,000 saved up. I also wrote a blog on this called "How I Made It To Hollywood" if you're interested more in how I made it to Hollywood with only $8,000 and no income.

Just writing about my previous blogs, and reading my past blogs. Honestly, it inspires me all over again, even though I'm completely happy with where I am at now, it relights a flame inside of me, wanting to do more, but more for others now. Here is another excerpt from one of my past blogs in 2009, me telling myself I wrote my future and I will succeed...

An excerpt from my blog post "Lessons From 08" on January 11th, 2009:

I just wrote my future, I just wrote my goals, I just manifested great things, because I am in fact a believer of the law of attraction (The Secret). I don’t give a shit if you believe it or not, because I will prove to myself I can live the dream. Remember — Don’t trust anyone, and don’t ever expect someone to help you when you are in need. Help your fucking self. (Lesson from 2008; I personally learned with hands on experience.)

Clearly, there was some anger behind my posts, but that anger, and the depression drove me to where I am now. Being burned multiple times by people, even in the shitty positions I was in at the time, I was still helping people around me. I gave multiple people around me a place to stay free, I bought people food, and the list goes on. I have always been a giver, even though I chase the dream, and chase the paper, I have always been selfless. Even if I come off egocentric sometimes, I am very selfless and giving. No matter the position I was in, I always tried to see the positive, even though my depression ate me up, I would try to remember this, a very important quote, because it's this quote that really makes you realize something powerful.

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An quote from my blog post "Movement" on February 2nd, 2008:

“We must remember that all these things, the nuances, the anomalies, the subtleties, which we assume only accessorize our days, are effective for a much larger and nobler cause. They are here to save our lives.”

Problems shape us, and if it wasn't for me losing everything, I wouldn't be who I am today. And I am grateful for that. I am grateful I lived off nothing but McDoubles for one year. I am grateful I had to lose all of materialistic possessions, all of my cars, all of my toys, my house, and the money in my bank. And when I say lose, I mean I was broke for three entire years with no car, I had to ask my mother for money sometimes just to take girls on dates. Because now I know, materials, it means nothing. I've lost it all once, so losing it all again wouldn't even affect on me, it would almost be just like another challenge I would enjoy overcoming.

You may think I'm contradicting myself right now just because I have a nice house and cars. But I worked blood sweat and tears for what I have. From the bottom to the top (thanks for that line Drake).

Another excerpt from my blog post "Lessons From 08" on January 11th, 2009:

"Something in me just triggered a sudden burst of some incredible emotions. I think the emotion I am feeling is this burning desire to become something again. I hate this stress, it’s holding me down, and the weight is so unbearable at times. I feel like I am carrying 500 pounds on my shoulders, especially when I am alone, I really begin to realize it. Being alone really puts things into perspective, my mind starts to wander around to things I need to get done, then I begin digging deeper, and then I become depressed. It’s funny though in a way, I get depressed, the depression drives me crazy, then it drives me to wanting to do something with my life again."

Losing everything drove me into a pivotal moment in my life. It's almost kind of silly to think, because it's just money, money isn't the cure-all. But, it was all mental. It drove me to depression, a depression so strong I would cry sometimes when I was alone, begging and preying for a way out. There's a quote I like, but needs a little explanation.

"Crying doesn't mean you're weak it means you have been strong for too long."

andrewbwSome people are just attention whores and little girls who cry when they don't get their way. But, for the rest of the world, I think this quote says a lot.

Enough of the deep depressive past, let me move a little further ahead. I got a little distracted, because a few paragraphs above I mentioned I moved back to Los Angeles June of 2011. That lasted only three months, and then I went to Las Vegas for a year. Oh boy. I covered a little bit of vegas in my blog post "How I Made It To Hollywood."

Las Vegas was great, and I met great people out there, but this is where I spiraled down again... After my breakup with my girlfriend in April of 2012, I started to get excessive with cocaine and MDMA. A good friend of mine suggested I move back to Colorado temporarily to pick myself back up, but it got worse. I don't blame anyone around me, because it was clearly my fault, I was the one buying it, and the one who wanted it. It became the drug I wanted anytime I would even get slightly buzzed from alcohol. So anytime I drank, I would get cocaine. I was constantly out partying, every single night, it was pretty bad. So I got out of Colorado, I couldn't stand it anymore, what I was doing, and what I was doing to myself. I felt trapped, I knew what I was doing, and I wanted Los Angeles back. I wanted to be bigger, and better than ever.

So I moved back to Las Vegas to live with a friend, and to save up to move back to Los Angeles. I got cleaned up, and moved back to Los Angeles November 1st of 2012. Now when I say cleaned up, I don't mean I was some insane drug addict, but I was definitely doing it way to much, and definitely needed to stop. From May 2012 to September 2012, I was in a really bad stage of my life.

Now, this leads to...

Los Angeles

 

I've been in Los Angeles since November 1st, and it's been amazing ever since. I've met the most incredible people. I have a whole set of new amazing, driven, successful friends. We all share the same interests and goals. I got a new roommate February 1st, and not only is he one of my business partners, he became my best friend out here in LA. This roommate of mine has actually shown me a whole different meaning of life that I never appreciated before.

We both are very successful and enjoy chasing the dream. We both want to run billion dollar businesses.

But here is the difference with my roommate versus me. He is one of the most spiritual people I have ever met. Not religious, but spiritual. And to be completely honest, I've never been into religion or spirituality. I am a believer of something bigger, I am a believer of the law of attraction, but I never really thought about anything beyond that. I've always just had the idea of building businesses in my mind.

After observing him for the last few months. I have learned so much, one of the biggest concepts I've learned from him is "living in the moment." Enjoying life, meditating, relaxing, and so on. It's hard to explain, but one of the things I would always do, is just keep moving. I wouldn't enjoy the moment, I was always the get in and get out kind of person. I cared to much about having my phone, my laptop, or where we are going next.

I know this probably seems like a kindergarten kind of concept, but to me... It's completely foreign. But let me give you a couple examples. We have a two story backyard with a full size 8 foot heated pool, with a huge attached jacuzzi that is at 104F 24/7 with jets. We have all the pool toys you could imagine, a giant slide, and the sun beams on our backyard perfectly from 11AM-4PM. He wakes up every morning, meditates in his bathroom with the shower running for 30 minutes, and then showers. Works for a few hours on his computer, and then goes out and enjoys the sun, tans for an hour or so, and jumps in the pool and enjoys it. Just soaks it up every single day. How many times have I done this in the last 6 months of living in a mansion with a full size heated pool. Zero.

Another example, we would go to the grocery store for one thing, a tub of almond ice cream at 10pm. Keep in mind, the grocery store is five blocks away. But that tub of ice cream trip took 1.5 hours, who's counting, I am. That's my problem. By being around him, I'm learning to be carefree and enjoy where we are, at the moment and time. Living in the present is what life is about. My ADHD always kicks in and says "Andrew, check your email!" or "Andrew, where are we going next, we have to get going, what is taking so long to get Ice Cream," meanwhile my friend is just enjoying life, flirting with girls, talking with random people, or just breathing in the air, enjoying his life... Living in the moment.

In a sense, I'm learning to not give a fuck anymore. Because honestly, who cares, who's counting, who's watching, and who's judging? I know this may seem kind of weird, but it's something that's been really helping me relax. The list goes on and on though.

I'm working on getting into meditation, yoga, relaxing in steam rooms, enjoying the sun/beach, and working out everyday. I already strongly believe in karma and being incredibly positive. I try my hardest to be positive at all times, and never talk negative, or talk shit about people, ever. Not to say I'm perfect, but I do believe I am a very positive person. I already eat healthy, and have been Vegan for two years now, although I still eat fish. No, I'm not a Pescetarian, which is what everyone thinks, they still eat eggs and dairy.

In conclusion, I can say this. Since my first $100,000 paycheck in January of 2006 till April of 2013 (present day), which is coming up on almost 8 entire years, of me blogging about my life, my ups, and my downs. I am beyond grateful for the experiences I've had. The people who have come in and out of my life. The people who are still in my life. The new people who are in my life. The family who has been there for me, even though I am a horrible family person. I am grateful that someone or something took everything away from me, and shattered me. I am grateful that I went through the drug experience I did, and came out of it alive. I am grateful to be alive, and to not be one of the suffering, or one of the underprivileged around the world. I plan to do something about this. Because every time I think about it, I know I could be doing something amazing for people around the world. I am grateful I am able to help people around me.

Success is great, and of course I'm driven, and hungry for more. But, really, success is just my creative outlet, it's all I'm good at. I can't draw, I can't sing, I'm not artistic at all. But, what I am good at, is building businesses, and getting things done. The older I get, the more I want to change the world. The more I want to travel. The more I want to experience. The more I want to inspire people.

I guess I need to end this blog at some point. So let me say one more thing. If I can do it. If I can strike luck and make millions, then have it all taken away. Hit rock bottom for three entire years, struggling, and get myself back up to the top. I have no doubt in my mind that you can do it too.

And on another note, it's not lonely at the top at all. I've even brought a few friends from the bottom, to the top, with me.

 

Just some random notes:

  • The song I looped while writing this: Yiruma - River Flows In You. (you can listen to it in the audio player below)
  • If any of you follow my blog, then you know I don't proofread my blogs, I just write what's on my mind, and click publish.
  • I love Los Angeles, and don't think I will ever live anywhere else anytime soon.
  • I want to go to Thailand soon.
  • Zeus is still my homie.
  • David Lehre made a pretty epic profile video for me.

 

Inspiration- What am I looking for?

It's talented people like David Lehre who seriously inspire and drive me. I've never even heard of k-pop until checking out his latest videos, his filming and creative direction is just absolutely insane. I've been following this very talented guy since he was making videos back in 06, and he won the MySpace video contest. Then he blew up and got noticed by large corporations, and now he's living in LA living the dream doing what he's passionate about. It's people like him who inspire me even more than I already am. Check out his amazing newest video:

This is what he says about his new video:

"I'm also very excited to show off my new music project to you-- We spent 3 days of shooting, 3 months of editing and $100,000 worth on the Music Video. The goal of this project is to bridge the Gap between American and K-Pop music and start bringing a new style to America + the world. Check out my debut Music Video, Chad Future - Hello feat. Jeremy Thurber, Below!"

He's definitely one of my favorite film makers, and I hope to meet and hire him to do a music video for one of the artists I'm working with. He definitely got me addicted to this K-pop stuff, hah.

Now for some rants:

Madeon is amazing, check out his tracks on YouTube.

It's Saturday night, and I'm not doing anything but watching my buddies girls. It's my last weekend in Vegas before my big move.

I still don't know what I'm going to be for Halloween. I'm thinking Eric from True Blood.

I just watched "The Devil's Advocate" for the first time, pretty awesome movie.

David Lehre just re-inspired me to find something I'm passionate about, and just fucking live for it, do it, enjoy it, own it. Be it.

Ben Baller is a baller. I need to take a photo of my essentials.

I was suppose to go to Thailand for two weeks in November, looks like I have to push that back.

I drank at least 6 bottles of water today.

Step it up, and permanently delete your Facebook. If I don't login for 4 more days, it's gone forever. They give you 14 days, so if you don't login for 14 days, then they delete it. (This is not deactivate, this is permanent delete)

My current songs that I'm constantly looping: Chris Brown - Don't Judge Me, Chris Brown - Don't Wake Me Up, Chris Brown - 2012, Madeon - Icarus, Madeon - The City, 2NE1 - I Love You

Got my ass kicked at Big Deuce, Scrabble, and Monopoly by my buddies Girlfriend. And I thought I was the king at those games :(

Bought my first handgun, Springfield XDM .45 cal 5.25"

I'm trying to find something I'm passionate about. I have all this hunger, all of this drive, all of this desire, being ADHD makes nothing EVER enough, it's the disease of us people ADHD, nothing is ever enough. But what is all this desire for? To build SkyScrapers, for fame, for money? For what, ya that's great, but it's meaningless if I can't even find value. What the fuck am I missing? I'm 50% there, but I still feel empty. I'm not looking for sympathy, and I don't think I'm depressed, but I'm missing something. And I can't figure it out. Fuck.

What To Do

I don't know what to post about anymore. I'm thinking of just turning this into just my personal blog just to post on travel and things I do, things I experience, etc... (Almost like my own memory book I can look back on) Maybe post photos from photoshoots when I start shooting again, but honestly, I don't really know what to post about anymore. Any ideas? Hah. My only desire is to take over the world, and then start a bad ass family (1 bad wife, 3 bad kids; "bad" meaning "badass"). I am doing pretty well, and only want to do better of course.

So from this point on, I will be blogging just about anything I feel like, I am not going to try and stay just money based, although most of topics probably will be about money.

I am going to release an App here in a couple weeks to engage with people who may have questions, or just want to comment on any of the photoshoots I do, etc...

I am driving to LA to look at a few places before I move out there, scheduled move date is Before Nov 15th 100%. The places I'm looking at are in Hollywood Hills, and I am super excited. There are so many amazing people out there that I know, and so many amazing talented people I want to meet.

So for my rants now.

I work so fucking much it's retarded.

I made $800 in BlackJack and $1500 in poker in one night, then lost it all the next day in BlackJack. (I don't have a gambling problem; haha)

I move to LA within the next 2 weeks. If I get the place I want, I will be in Hollywood Hills West.

I am going to be living with a great friend of mine, his wife and 2 girls (I love the girls, they are the cutest things ever); It's only for 2 months tops until he gets his place.

I cannot wait to go to the beach, hit the gym (equinox), shop my ass off, meet amazing people, travel the world, play volleyball, etc...

I have a pink iPhone case, because it's awesome.

LifeProof is fucking amazing.

iPhone 5 kicks ass.

Apple still is my favorite brand ever.

I love my friends kids, I am ready for kids, well maybe in a couple years.

I really need to upgrade to the new MBP, now the new iMac as well, and might as well pick up an iPad Mini too.

Chris Brown is my favorite artist.

I am trying to figure out how to market BEMODEL, I am also completely redesigning it because I hate the design and how it functions. (I have ADHD)

I have incredible ADHD and I love it.

I don't care what you think of me.

I am finally free.

I love life.

Sometimes I do incredibly stupid things when I'm drunk.

I haven't been laid in 3 weeks since I've moved to Vegas. It's almost relieving to not hangout with Women for awhile, my focus has been insane.

My highest profit in one day is $7,500. I'm averaging $2-$3k/day now. (I don't say this to impress you, but impress upon you; I went from eating McDoubles every day for a year to where I am now)

No I will not post a blog on my secrets, otherwise everyone would just copy them. Do what I did, put yourself in a pinch where you are forced to figure it out. I moved out to LA a year ago with only $7,000 and got approved into a $3,500 loft I couldn't even afford. I told myself I had 3 months to figure out (1 month before they evict me, maybe even longer). Then I ended up in Vegas because of my stupid relationship Taurus problems, only a Taurus would understand where I'm coming from.

Although I won't post my secrets, I don't mind posting business blogs, like my last one.

I am currently working on 2 companies. (BEMODEL and Inverse Venture, Inc.) I need to rename it though, it's going to be my holding company for investments, apps I launch, etc...

It took me about 6 months to finally feel free from my relationship.

No relationships for me unless it's the "one"

I cannot figure out what my passion is, or hobby, I thought it was photography, but I don't crave it anymore. I need to find a hobby, suggestions?

Let's destroy the world together, have an idea that will blow and isn't overly complicated, you know what to do.

If you're in LA, let's meet up.

That's it till tomorrow. Goodnight, and cheers.

Updates Coming

Updates coming, photos, videos, life updates, money updates, all kinds of updates coming. Sorry for the shitty blogs lately. Life has just been hectic.

I am moving to LA October 10th still, cannot wait to finally be in LA officially FOREVER this time.

Let me know what you're interested in hearing about. I'm still interested in investing if someone has a genius App or Website idea. So if the idea is fire, email it over, and an NDA/NCC if you require it as well. Make sure to email me at andrewfashion@me.com and make the subject "BUSINESS PROPOSAL"

Thanks for reading, and keep your head up.

Off To Los Angeles Again

Here I come LA, going to get a sick place in either Hollywood Hills or Beverly Hills. I'm fucking murdering it, and it isn't stopping. Killing it so hard, I will be in commercial real estate soon enough. Also launching a shit load of iPhone Apps before this year ends. And yes here comes BEMODEL as well. After I finish launching all 3 of my iPhone Apps, and get BEMODEL launched here soon, I'm going to look into investing into some commercial real estate (strip club, bar, club-- find a successful one of course, or if I can try to get an investor to invest with me and start my own).

I'll try to post more details here soon.

My Bentley is getting wrapped Matte White in 2 weeks. I'm excited.

Where I'm At Right Now

Single for a few months now, I seem to always do this to myself. Get into a long relationship, make myself miserable and my partner miserable, and constantly break up with my girlfriends, and then keep going back and forth. And then when I try to fix it for the 10th time, it's to late. Out of all 3 relationships I've had, all amazing girlfriends, I ended it because I always wanted more, I'm a greedy mother fucker. I had the best of girlfriends, but for some reason, something in me wants MORE. It's not even about settling, the girlfriends I've had were probably perfect 10's in a lot of peoples books. But anyways, life goes on, no point in dwelling. Fuck women, work all day, and maybe sex at night, haha. But no relationships until I make at least 15 million.

So I have been living in Vegas since November now, and I've met some great people, but I'm falling into the Vegas trap. Thank god I'm catching myself and cutting myself off completely from partying. Vegas is not a place anyone should want to live. Ever.

Anyways I've got three iPhone Applications in production. BEMODEL Marketing has begun, and everything is going well. Currently working on the marketing plan for BEMODEL. I've got a pretty funny iPhone Application that will be available in the App Store shortly, I'm sure every single male will have it on their phone.

I always out of nowhere get these insane burst of emotions that seem to push me, this has only ever happened a few times in my life, where my motivation goes through the roof. It's like motivation, inspiration, drive, obsessive need of crazy success, and a mild bit of jealousy. I've hit that point again, where I'm at is not enough, I want more, I need more. I'm dying inside.

A Bentley GT, and mediocre house isn't enough for me. No where near enough. I belong in Beverly Hills with a multi-million dollar mansion, a private jet, an incredible yacht, and Mila Kunis as my Wife. I'm sure of you feel the same I do, so let's stop fucking around, and really do this shit. We all say it, "Fuck this, I'm really going to kill it now," but most of us are all full of shit. So why don't we really just fucking kill it. For the next 3 months, Andrew will be a killer Andrew, the Andrew that is Vegan, works out everyday, and fucking works 24/7 working on my own ideas and businesses. And fucks bitches, and parties only when he deserves it.

I hate the feeling of letting people who have invested in me down. I have companies I'm still working on that still haven't bloomed yet, and it's driving me absolutely insane.

Oh I'm living in Colorado again, so I can focus, save up, and work on my house, this is only temporarily. I'm moving to CA in 3 months maximum.

That's all I have right now.